Friday, April 30, 2010

stories in squares

this is such a great story! this man went to my church a long time ago! he left around the time i moved there. he was our worship leader and well known artists! i admire him so much! he shares the story about his close friends, the johnsons. sean johnson and his wife cate knew they wanted to adopt from the start. they heard about Haiti, went down a few times, met these three amazingly amazing girls and absolutely fell in love!! i hope you guys like it! i loved it!

<3 Xox







http://www.youtube.com/ArtistSteveHickok#p/a/u/0/9dle6bqbSF0

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Thursday, April 29, 2010

NEW BLOG!!!!!!!

hey!
i just finished creating my new blog! but don't worry, i'll continue to keep this one up too! :) check it out and enjoy!



http://toristhoughtsandexpressions.blogspot.com/

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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

one of my fav. things about being home schooled

i went into home schooling with closed eyes and a hard heart not knowing what to expect and not knowing that i'd get to spend many precious moments with my mommy!!...

yesterday, my mom and i had a fun time at lunch! we were watching a music lecture and eating. in the lecture, the guy wanted you to dance to the rhythm. i didn't. lets just say i got to have my lunch and a little entertainment thanks to my funny and cute mom! haha watching her (attempting) to dance was like watching a 4 year old dance while watching the wiggles! it was so cute and soooo funny! we had lots of laughs that day!

today, my mom and i went for a stroll down baby lane! she was going through some of her old old journals and reading some of them out loud to me. one entry that we stopped on was the processes of adopting moi! haha it was sooo funny to read and very cool to think back on! :) i found out, while reading, that my name options were either claire, caliegh, elizabeth or victoria. hahaha we read from the time my parents sent in their paper work all the way up to when they first held me in their arms! :) ah yes! good times!

i'm really going to miss not hanging out with my mom during the day. i'll be attending a brick and mortar school next year and will have a whole new academic life, during the day. i'm looking forward to going, but it will be weird waking up knowing that i won't be spending the whole day with my mommy! :(

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

beauty....



Look! isn't it just breath taking?!?! i LOVE it!

before i moved to Tennessee i never really thought to stop and look at God's amazing craftsmanship of the lovely desert! (even though its hot, dry, dusty, hot, hot and very hot....it doesn't seem to be the one thing that consumes your mind when your living there!) your too busy with your own life. whats going on that day. all the unnecessary "drama", home work, school, after school activities, friends.

i found this picture today and i just had to stop what i was doing and just stare at it for a good 5 minutes and think back to all the fun memories that i formed hiking with family and friends! ah yes! the good 'ol days!...then i looked out my window and though about my new life here. ah yes! its going to be...interesting! (haha) i can't wait to see what God has planned for me and my family!...Why we moved? i have no idea. but we're here.

now, as a look out the window its semi-gray, half blue sky,far off, and of course lots and lots of green...pretty much everywhere you look!! i also see the road that we take every time we leave the house. its very...curvy! :) sometimes its fun to drive on, others not so much. ;) but the main thought that comes to my mind when i look out at that road is "every time we turn that corner...we are leaving with an unpredicted future." and every time we come back, we have a new memory. thats so cool!

which brings me back to this picture above. there are soooo many different types of cactus' in Arizona, my personal favorite the saguaro! every time one grows up and grows new "arms" something new and fascinating happens that very same day! the sun goes up. the sun sets. yet those cactus' are always there. continuing to grow and spread its arms! :))

Friday, April 23, 2010

music wishlist....

as some of you may know, i LOVE music! its pretty much the....3rd thing that keeps me going, besides, of course, Jesus Christ and the love of my family!! :)
Music is my free time muse! haha (as some of my friends call it)
I put together a music wish list of songs that i really want to buy on itunes! (the list will continue to grow for sure!) but here are all the songs that i've found so far...

-britt nicole "walk on water"
-casting crowns "until the whole world hears"
-googoo dolls "iris"
-fine frenzy "near to you"
-mia "paper planes"
-kris allen "live like your dieing"
-justin beiber "baby"
-sara grooves "you are wonderful"
-relient k "must have done something right"
-meiko "boys with girlfriends"
-corrine bailey rae "put your records on"
-paramore "crush, crush, crush"
-graduation song [friends forever]
-snow patrol "set the fire on the third bar"
-"bleedin love"
-"i can only imagine"

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Sunday night....



Lots of laughs, fears and tears. but we got through it! Thank you God for putting these AMAZINGLY AMAZING girls in my life!!! :)

<3 loved <3

Saturday, April 17, 2010

driving...*sigh*

well, after many ruthless visits to the horrid DMV my mom and i were finally able to get what we needed!....my mom got her TN license and i finally got my TN permit! :) Yayy!!....now for the real challenge....getting out on the main roads without yelling at one another in the car! -__- *sigh* but like everything...its going to be a work in progress! haha we shall see!

lots of mental strength and prayer is needed! haha

" Jesus take the wheel!"

<3 anxious <3

Friday, April 16, 2010

My Blog is my "Thought Filter"

There are a few things you must know about...moi!

1) i LOVE to write!!

2) i LOVE to serve!!

3) i enjoy giving!!

4) i enjoy dancing like a crazy person every once in a while!

and last but certainly NOT least...

5) i'm always, always thinking!!

Thinking is probably the 2nd main thing that i'm doing. (from the outside i may seem quiet, shy, and maybe even alittle boring at times!....) but thats because i'm constantly thinking!! Sometimes all the thinking over powers my head and my mouth goes on snooze mode.

but being quiet was already covered in an earlier entry! haha

THINKING. QUESTIONS.

All kids are full of questions! each of them being very important to them in their own way! As you get older your thinking grows deeper, more critical, and much more serious. Some people joke around about having a "dumb" or "stupid" question...well, i don't believe in such a thing! ha! i will admit though, that some people tend to ask relatively "obvious" questions. So, instead of saying i have a "stupid" question, i like to go about saying i have an "obvious" question. Because if you really THINK about it...."stupid" questions are, for the most part, obvious! haha almost 99% of the time peoples "stupid" questions are easily answered! am i right?! ;)

So, i've been thinking....and i came up with a bunch of questions!...here are a few of them:

statement- In Leviticus 23:3 it says "Six days shall work be done, but on the seventh day is a Sabbath of SOLEMN REST, a holy convocation. You shall do NO WORK. it is a Sabbath to the Lord in all your dwelling places."

my question- How do we apply this verse to modern day society?? How do we obey this the "right" way?? If there is such a thing. Are we sinning if we go out to eat after church? Or if we are doing school projects?? hmmmmm?....

statement- In Leviticus 24:17-22 it says "Whoever takes a human life shall surely be put to death. Whoever takes an animal's life shall make it good, life for life. If anyone injures his neighbor, as he has done it shall be done to him, fracture for fracture, eye for eye, tooth for tooth; whatever injury he has given a person shall be given to him. Whoever kills a person shall be put to death."

my question- well, first of all....intense! i know! but thats coming straight out of the Bible itself! So my Q is, once again, how do we apply all that to the modern world?? When someone kills someone they either go to jail for a long time or depending on how bad the case was, they may get the electric chair!....is THAT Biblical???? hmmmm?....

statement- In Leviticus 25:35-38 it says "If your brother becomes poor and can not maintain himself with you, you shall support him as though he were a stranger and a sojourner, and he shall live with you. Take no interest from him or profit, but fear your God, that your brother may live beside you. You shall not lend him your money at interest, nor give him your food for profit. I am the Lord you God, who brought you our of the land of Egypt to give you the land of Canaan, and to be your God."

my question- Annnd for the last time...how do we apply THIS to our daily lives??? In this crazy, messed up, deformed, mad, mad, mad, modern world....there are a hand full of people out there lending a hand! Who are actually doing something about this huge mess! then there are those...who could care less...they're just sitting there, in their homes, in their pj's, watching their "grass"....aka...their lives, their opportunities, their world slooooowly crumble up by the big mean bullies also commonly called our government take over and rule the "playground".
...but i'm talking about the ones who are helping out, supporting the discouraged, lending a loving, helping hand to the poor and needy....

I guess there is not really one way of doing something. There's really no "good and perfect" way of going about following the Bible. I've been having major mental battles go on in my small skull for the past week about these verses! and still am! ugggh!!.....theres not really ONE answer....is there?? i don't know! does anyone truly know!? I'm pretty sure not one person living on this crazy, mad, deformed world can give me or anyone with similar questions the "right" answer to these.

but it would be nice to see what you guys THINK! :)

<3 super confused <3

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

random thoughts for the day.....

"America is like a modern day Israel.

I hate going to the DMV.

I wonder what my future holds???

I love God.

why does everything have to be so complicated?!

just do it.
Sarah Palin is a modern day Esther.

i miss AZ.

this summer is going to rock!

i'm so pumped for this Sunday!

i love the new friends i've met here so far!

so much to do in so little time.
i'm going to run again tonight!

i really wana do a photo shoot with a friend!

you can do it!

time. it comes and goes.

God is amazing!"

Saturday, April 10, 2010

continued vision....

A long time ago....i prayed for God to show me, or at least give me a hint, to why he was having me move. i closed my eyes and i listened. then, out of nowhere....this picture came into my head! it was as clear as clear can get!!! In my little vision i saw me, in a dance room, with a bunch of little girls! then i opened my eyes and thought "so your having me move because you want me to be a dance teacher??" then a bright flash came across my window! and i closed my eyes again! this time i saw the same little girls in the dance room with me....but i noticed something that i didn't in my last "vision". i saw hearing aids in the girls ears! and i saw their faces! it hit me!!!....God wanted me to see this!!!...I wasn't only teaching a class of 5-6 yr old girls dance, but i was teaching a class of special needs and deaf 5-6 yr old girls dance!!! i opened my eyes...."wow"..."really?"..."me?!"..."you obviously picked the wrong girl for that job!" but God NEVER picks the wrong people for anything. once that thought entered my head i was in total shock. how am I....a 16 year old girl....supposed to teach a group of 5-6 yr old downs/deaf girls?!? i'm too busy!....but then again...."ALL things are possible through Jesus Christ" :)
So today i had that same exact "vision" :p (my 3rd time may i add) haha sooooo i'm breaking it down. making up moves...and holding Gods hand...tight!
please pray for me as I try to figure out what exactly God wants me to do with those girls.

<3 confused <3

Friday, April 9, 2010

all i want is one simple card!!!!!

Ok, so....today my mom and i went to the DMV (for the 2nd time) full of hope that i would finally get my permit here!! I've been slowly starting to boil with the government. -__- Ughh!

Well, lets back up to the first time my mom and i went. We had my birth certificate, school attendence, and a bunch of other important paper work all ready to show the people.....found out that they are a lot stricter than they are in AZ! MAN! i tell ya! Anyways, the guy told us (in his sluggish ways) "im....sorry....we can't take this...we need more paper work...uggg....yeah....so...yeah...please come back with that and you should be able to get your permit then...." So my mom and i left smiling...ticked....but smiling and said "ok! we'll be back"

* a few weeks later *

Today my mom, brother and i walked in with all the paper work. (they wanted paper work showing that i'm actually attending A school. :p laaaaammmeeee! but whatever! SO we showed the lady EVERYTHING that the guy told us to bring. (now, unfortuneately i was kind of expecting this....but) the lady said "im sorry...this isn't enough we need to see another form showing that you are an actual resident of the U.S.) or something stupid like that. -__- soooo once again my mom and i walked out smiling...super ticked off now...but still smiling and said "ok! we'll be back! :)

Walking out i was throwing an absolute temper tantrum in my head!!! DUDE?!?! WHAT IS THE DEAL?!?!?! my adoption process went faster than this!!!! all i want is a simple platic card with my picture and information on it saying that i'm legal to drive on the roads with an adult (or someone over 18)!!! is that too much to ask?!?! Buuuut...what can ya do? its just all so...DUMB! :p

~upset~

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

one of my many LOVES




Some of you may not know this about me....one of my many loves are making jewelry! I've made pretty much everything from threaded friendship bracelets to metal earrings! I enjoy making fun funky necklaces too! Its a fun "free time" activity! :)



2 FLIP FLOPS~ i LOVE being able to walk outside and not have to worry about tying shoes! flip flops are much more easier! ;)

2 KEYS~ i went to a co - op called KEYS it was the best co- op i've ever been involved in!! thats made a huge impact on my life!

the "SISTERS" charm~ this charm stands for my lovely core group!! i LOVE them sooo much!! they really mean the world to me!....it also stands for all my "gf's" in general!...hehe

KITTY charm~ i. LOVE. hello kitty.

SUN~ i hate the cold! i LOVE the warmth!

the HEART~ Jesus is the center of my life!

Locks Of Love



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(after)

Monday, April 5, 2010

"Over You" by Chris Daughtry

"Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you."

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Last Song & The Blind Side







...my 2 favorite movies!!!.....so far....

"i learned from you" -miley cyrus

I didn't wanna listen to what you were sayin'
I thought that I knew all I need to know
I didn't realize that somewhere inside me
I knew you were right but I couldn't say so

I can take care of myself, yeah, you taught me well

I learned from you that I do not crumble
I learned that strength is something you choose
All of the reasons to keep on believin'
There's no question, that's a lesson, that I learned from you


We always don't agree on
What is the best way
To get to the place that we're going from here
But I can really trust you, and give you the distance,
to make your decisions without any fear


I'm grateful for all of the times
You opened my eyes

I learned from you that I do not crumble
I learned that strength is something you choose
All of the reasons to keep on believin',
There's no question, that's a lesson
I learned from you


You taught me to stand on my own
and I thank you for that


It saved me, it made me,
and now that I'm looking back

I can say

woooaaahhhh!

Hmmmm... Hmmmm... Yeah!

I learned from you that

I learned from you


I do not crumble
I learned that strength is something you choose

something you choose


All of the reasons to keep on believin',

keep on believin'

There's no question, that's a lesson that I learned from you


Woooaaahhhh!
I learned from yoooouuu

I learned that strength is something you choose
something you choose


All of the reasons to keep on believin',
There's no question, that's a lesson that I learned from you

yeah!

I learned from you

Saturday, April 3, 2010

pretty rainbow!!!!

this week.....





hmmm....what did i do this week???
they say a picture is worth 1,000 words....so...here ya go!

"when i look at you" -by miley cyrus

Everybody needs inspiration,
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy...

Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When I look At You I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars Hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I Know I'm Not Alone.

Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like Kaleidoscope colors that
Cover Me, All I need every
Breath that I breathe don't you know
You're beautiful...

Yea Yea Yea

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you
I look at you

Yea Yea Oh OH OH

And you appear Just like a dream
To me.


....this song has been stuck in my head all day! haha

its about TIME

just give me time, cause thats all i need.
just give me time, cause thats all i want.
just give me time, and i'll start to bloom.
just give me time, and i'll slowly start to share.
just give me time, and i'll show you my story.
its all about time, all you have to do is give it to me,
and i'll give you a lot more!!